The yr 2005 has been a bit full-on! It was a black yr for my family as a couple of my relos has gone (passed away) including my dear cousin Nikko who we all love and miss so much until now.

But aside from that my yr personally has been a bit exciting if not eventful! A lot of things has happened that has changed me as a person. From break-ups to new new (and GREAT) relationships. Friendships that has ended and friendship that was renewed. I have learnt so much and funny enough having a lot of "Me Time" has helped me reflect on those "up's and down's" in my life.

The first lesson that I've learnt and will forever keep is the lesson in giving trust to other people.

• Christian... hmmm... I dont know how to start as I've already moved on and have managed to forget (specially forgive). I was decieved and betrayed. What he's done is worst than cheating... but I've already healed and completely have moved on.


• Frank... Oh.... The so-called-love of my life! hehehehe... who would have thought that this relationship would end. And who would have thought that I would be the one breaking up with him when all the while everyone thought I was madly in-love with him!!! But.. I was! WAS! Meaning not anymore! After having that "talk" with him and after him confessing that he has been seeing other girls on the side, I have decided that I will not put up with his shit and that it will be better for me to move on with my life. Yes of course I felt upset! Gone was my Italian Wedding and Honeymoon in Tuscany (just dreaming really....) But most of all, I missed his mum... Zia Nina.... Her fine Italian food... hmmm.... but it wasnt just about the food!!! I loved spending time with her.... even just going to the nursery to buy plants for spring was a great day with her. I've learnt so much about life from her. I've learnt that regardless about what other people percieve your family or yourself... you shouldnt care. Because at the end of the day... You know better than those people who likes to criticize about you!

Good things has happened too! God... I have been going to the Gold Coast like crazy! But my last trip there made me realize that I really dont want to live there but just want to spend time with my bestfriend Deno (Emily). We have done losta stupid but fun things together and I dont have any regrets at all... if any... lack of sleep... But thats where my Marky (aka The Great Marky Experience) came along.

I have been partying hard this year! Been partying hard like its always New Years Eve every weekend! Till I met Mark. I've stopped smacking myself crazy... try hard not to get too drunk and have been fit than ever before (except for this week as we've only been eating and drinking like crazy! Blame the Festive Season!!!!). Mark is not only just a good root but a great mentor. He has taught me not just naughty stuff in bed but to be a healthy eater as well. I dont normally eat breakfast, but ever since I've been with him, I have been doing so. Oh.. and gone are my dopio macchiatto days! Geez.... who would have thought that I would one day stop drinking coffee?!!? Gone are my coffee infused mornings, arvos and even late arvos... hehehehe.... welcome my new friend: Green Tea!!! Hehehehe... I have stopped eating Macca's and have been drinking lotsa water too! One thing that I really cant do is having my Me Time! I dont mind not having much to do. i dont mind being bored and idle sometimes. I normally use those times to think and contemplate about my life and write on my journal. You should see my journal... I've had it since 2002! Evertime I feel upset about something, I just look back at the times when I thought my life is over and then I'll be happy again knowing that I've survived the heartaches, pains and disappointment that some people or situation has given me. Also this year... well... I'm proud to say that I've been getting the best sex in my life! Hahahaha!!! If only I can write it all down and let you know what I've been up to... Jarece... it will drive you crazy!!!! Hehehehehe... Gone are my bad sex days! Thank gawd I broke up with Frank otherwise I'd still be as desperate and cranky as I was before!

I have still a lot of chica to tell you but I'm running out of time. i have to try on this beautiful midnight blue dress that i bought for New Years Eve and I'm so excited about it!

I will try to post pictures here by early next year... and just letting you in on my little secret... i think I'll be going to Spain next yr!!! Yay!!!

Advance Happy New Year to everybody!!!!