I dont know why I have been thinking about Christian lately? I dont know why all of a sudden I find myself wondering how he's doing? The fact that he really hasnt done me any good is just so absurd.... Why do I even bother? The lies... the pain of worrying... The tears that werent even worth it.... Why is it that all of a sudden I find myself missing him? All these questions... Its weird... horrendous! Jayd told me last week... I dont need a person like that in my life... Not even as a friend! In all relationships TRUST is one major factor! With what Christian did... there can never be anymore trust left... Not even a single bit. But then again didnt God said "Forgive your neighbour as I forgave you."? I guess I have forgiven Christian for I no longer feel hatred. What I just cant comprehend is why is there an urge of wanting him back in my life... unconsciously?!!!? Why is it that all of a sudden... its all about Christian again? Why is it that I feel that he's back?

This is not right and I will not put up with this freakin thing thats going on with my mind.... I know that somehow I will get over this feeling. Its just a phase... it always happens... Specially when Frank disappears in my life for a while.... So tell me... Do i pass on the blame to Frank? Oh poor me... How freakin impossible huh?!!? Tell me how uncomplicated my life can be....

They call me Anna Banana....

Hahahahaha!!!!!