-=Yellow=-

Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And everything you do,
Yeah they were all yellow,

I came along
I wrote a song for you
And all the things you do
And it was called yellow

So then I took my turn
Oh all the things I've done
And it was all yellow

Your skin
Oh yeah your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
D'you know you know I love you so
You know I love you so

I swam across
I jumped across for you
Oh all the things you do
Cause you were all yellow

I drew a line
I drew a line for you
Oh what a thing to do
And it was all yellow

Your skin
Oh yeah your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
D'you know for you i bleed myself dry
For you i bleed myself dry

Its true look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine
look at the stars look how they shine for you

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you will always be inside my heart... forever i will love you....

Paul Christian Wagner

21.07.73-24.01.05

Hi Babe,

I know you're probably crinkling your forehead again as Im calling you Chrissie once again and you get so annoyed... dont worry, I wont mind you calling me Annsie... I promise I wont be bugging you when you're playing your X-Box anymore. Have I told you??? Jayd has aproved my long weekend before Valentines Day... therefore you can now book the room at the Mountains... You were really hoping that I'll be spending that weekend with you and I know that it would mean so much to you so I told Jayd that I really needed that off. *sigh*

All these things... I wish I was able to tell you before you left. Im just so glad that I told you that I love you... and I still do Chrissie. I now have my very own angel... will you be watching over me? I hope now you're happy... finally... I'm trying to be as strong as I can be babe cos I know thats what you want me to do. You still want me to be happy and Im still hanging on to the things that you've told me... "You will never let go not unless I I want you to..." Babe... I'll never let go ever. You said that things will be better... Im counting on that one too. You said that I should believe that nice things can happen and will last... Babe... I can never understand how you can say that and then just leave me.... Its so hard babe.... I just hope that whatever might happen... you'll guide me and will always be with me...

I love you my baby...

Forever.....

Love...

Your Baby Girl Annsie... xxx to you

Happy Birthday Markie Boy!!!!

Sorry if i havent been blogging for a while. i have been taking care of my boyfriend who's got severe depression and finally his suffering is over. Last Monday nite Christian took his life away. The last thing i heard from him was "Good night my sweet. Till tomorrow." Didnt know that that was the last thing I'll be hearing from him. We were meant to go out for dinner Tuesday night. Go to Bondi at his fave mexican restaurant... Its sad... Im sad... I dont know what im really feeling right now. I feel empty inside... I feel as if he's still here and this is all a bad dream. I know I will see him again.... I love you Christian.... I just hope you were a lot more stronger... I just hope that you believed in me.... in us... I love you... forever

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That was the sweetest one month ive ever had... and it was with you my babe... it was with you....