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| ...-=GEMINI FOR THE YEAR 2004=-... |
| 12.30.03 (6:04 am) [edit] |
[b]Gemini [/b]
[i](May 21 to June 21)[/i]
[i][b]Love[/b][/i]
Your love life might not have been a wasteland recently but at times it wasn’t great, either. The good news is this trend is over – romance this year will be worthwhile. In October, things really come to life and start to work for you. By the end of 2004, you will bless your lucky love stars. You’ll be a complete person at last.
[i][b]Health[/b][/i]
You have good health stars. You might miss a few days’ work due to colds or sniffles but that’s about all. March and April bring problems with heat. This can be heat from the Sun or hot devices. Either way, use commonsense. There may also be eye problems. Maybe you need the dreaded reading glasses, or a renewed prescription.
[i][b]Home[/b][/i]
Jupiter in your angle of the home is excellent for expansion and change. Many Geminis will move. Some will do so because the kids have moved on, some because your present home is somehow restricting. September brings good vibes for moving, but you must get your priorities right first and work out what it is you want from your home.
[i][b]Career[/b][/i]
Excellent stars for career. Geminis working in health will enjoy smiles from Lady Luck. This is the time to take calculated risks. April brings superb stars for doing your thing. The first half of the year brings favours from people in positions of power, all of which seem to culminate in the lunar eclipse in May.
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| ...-=A SEXY NEW YEAR'S WISH=-... |
| 12.30.03 (5:37 am) [edit] |
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Wishing you all a [b]SEDUCTIVE[/b] and [b]HORNY[/b] "[u]2004[/u]"... [b]LICKED[/b] by love and [b]PENETRATED[/b] by [b]HEAVENLY GRACES[/b]; may all your misfortunes be [b]EJACULATED[/b] before the new year's [b]CLIMAX[/b]!
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| ...-=NEW YEARS EVE!!!=-... |
| 12.30.03 (5:33 am) [edit] |
its 23 hours and 40 minutes to be exact before 2004!!! tonite will be my annual non-stop party nite with my friends! 8) i will be with different people tomorrow... hopefully with my Polish bestfriend and her fiance. Hopefully Michelle wont dog me tomorrow too! I heard that the fireworks at the city will be nothing compared to the fireworks before! it'll be more nicer and much more spectacular! we were advised to bring portable radio's so we can hear the music together with the foreworks!!! im so excited!!! another year... another round!!! cool things really... i'm moving out and thats what im meant to be doing! im so excited about so many things!!! now... im just thinking... what about my love life?!!? hmmm.... well, i just hope that many happy returns!!! can wait for 2004... we're gonna party like crazy!!!!!
[i]***Woohoo!!!! Get the party started!!!![/i] 8)
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| .-=ARRIVEDERCI PHILIP=-... |
| 12.29.03 (7:59 am) [edit] |
a letter for my ex-fiance:
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hi... i was just told to apologise to you for the things that i've done in the past that must have hurt you and has made you feel resentful towards me. i dont know if you are in anyway still upset with me but i thought, since its almost the new year... why not let go of hurt feelings and move on. i know that you have moved on.... ages ago! i have just started like 8 months ago... and although its all not that easy, i have managed. but before i would still have those doubts in myself and i would still get scared of getting hurt and start to think about what has happened between us. i started talking to someone about it... and i was told that i havent really healed just yet. i was told that i have let go of you... but not the pain. i have forgiven... but i havent forgotten. sometimes its nice to look back, but sometimes we just dont need to. i want to heal properly just to be fair to myself... for the person that im with right now. i want to feel happy and not have doubts just because i cant get over the fact that things didnt work out right between us and maybe things will never work out about anything with me. i want to apologise for thinking that way... for thinking that everything that has happened in the past was all your fault, that you've done it for yourself. i want to apologise for thinking bad of you. for thinking that you never really cared and for thinking that you have been selfish all the time. i have let go but although ive said that i have forgiven, i have kept the hurt inside me. i cant say that i feel sad right now cuz im not, im happy but not contented but maybe after this, things wont be just silent... but peaceful. twas nice to have been with you on a journey that has taught me not just about life and love but about getting hurt and healing. i know this may sound a bit stupid... like non-sense writing, but i have to do it in order for me to get in touch with my innerself once again! it does sound stupid, yeah?!
this will do... i know that you're okay with it... although it really seems a bit odd for me to be sending you this. trust me... it took me ages trying to think whether i should send this to you or not! sometimes it feels silly, the last time ive written an email this long was when Frank went to europe for a month... but now, it just feels right... although a bit weird. im closing this chapter of my life... no more looking back... im not even gonna think about the hurt anymore, not even the happy memories... not even the little angel that has bonded us before... im not gonna forget about her but i cant look back anymore. im sure im doing the right thing... for once im doing something good for myself... im letting go of all the things that has hurt me, has haunted me and has scared me. i cant say thank you... but i can say that my heart is pure when i say best wishes.... take care and god bless...
arrivederci,
anna may
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| ...-=RITCHE=-... |
| 12.29.03 (6:31 am) [edit] |
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he's my ex boyfriend! the one person who has been very honest with me! he has hurt me in the past but ive gotten over it in a snitch! after 3 months of breaking up with him... he called me... he asked me how i was. i told him that im good... just really busy and that i cant talk to him cuz i'm really busy! he seemed a bit upset... but he started talking... he told me that he was at work... and was surprised that im not even asking about him... like how was he... or if he was even doing fine. I just told him... i'm really busy... but im hoping that he's doing fine. we became friends after 3 weeks of that call cuz he didnt stop calling me. he knows that i was seeing someone already even the day after we broke up! he cheated on me y'know... and that was my way of getting even with him! its funny though... he was cheating on me but he would tell me straight away... like the next day that he has ever done it! he would tell me about what he has done cuz he wanted me to know it from him and not from anybody else! i once asked him to leave the girl that he was cheating with on me... and he promised yes! he stuffed up though! he promised... but he didnt keep his promise! so after 1 yr and 2 mos of putting up with his shit... i broke up with him started going out with this guy that he hates soooo much!!! but... that was ages ago!!! now, we're very good friends! of all my ex boyfriends... he's the only one who i still talk to! sometimes we get our moments when we would tease each other. try to rekindle the lost flame! hehehe... but no... it wont happen! we tried to sleep with each other again but it didnt happen! we ended up laughing at each other because we think that its a bit silly being together in the same bed once again! plus we dont want to ruin our friendship anymore! he's so nice! i remember once... i called him up... he answered his fone and i hang-up on him. then afterwards after 30 minutes he called me up. then i told him that i called him before. he asked me when and then i told him that just before he did but i hang-up on him cuz i just wanted to hear his voice! :) he thought that was sweet... i thought i was being silly! but since then... he started doing that to me as well... because like we said... sometimes you dont have anything to say to someone... but you just want to hear their voice because its soothing to the heart. he used to sing to me on the fone when we were talking.... he isnt an excellent singer... but man... the effort! hehehe... he's really sweet! if he wasnt a player... he wouldve been a perfect boyfriend! the reason why im making an article about him is because... i talked to him just a couple days back. and its funny how even he's so far away from me... *he's overseas* he still makes me smile... laugh... and feel so good! tche is one nice person... and i will never forget him ever! he will always be my special friend! luy yah tche... buddies forever!!!
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| ...-=LETTER A=-... |
| 12.28.03 (8:19 pm) [edit] |
Kuxie my textmate sent this to me ages ago... I was deleting some stuff on my PC's c drive as I'm moving out soon and I wont be able to bring my PC with me... eniweyz... This is heaps fun... a bit accurate (or shall I say coincidence?) but oh well.... just read on... *gosh... thats turning to be my fave phrase!!!* hehehehe...
ayez l'amusement !
Moi =)
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[b]Does your name begin with: A[/b]<== [i]this one's me!!![/i]>
U are not particularly romantic, but you are interested in action.You mean business. With you, what you see is what you get.You have no patience for flirting and can't be bothered with someone who is trying to be coy, cute, demure, and subtly enticing. You are an up-front person. You often don't get hints & you ever pass any. Brains turn you on. You must feel that your partner is! intellectually stimulating, otherwise you will find it difficult to sustain the relationship. You require loving, cuddling, wining, and dining to know that you're being appreciated. Your mate's physical attractiveness is important for you. You tend to be very Practical, & not very emotional Your choices are very good & can only lead to trouble. You are very self satisfied & egoistic.
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[b]Does your name begin with: B [/b]
You give off vibes of lazy sensuality. You enjoy being romanced, wined, and dined. You are very happy to receive gifts as an ______expression of the affection of your lover. You want to be pampered and know how to pamper your mate. You are private in your ______expression of endearments, and particular when it comes to love. You will hold off until everything meets with your approval. You can control your appetite & feelings. You require new sensations and experiences. You are willing to experiment.
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[b]Does your name begin with: C [/b]
You are a very social individual, and it is important to you to have a relationship. You require closeness and togetherness. You want the object of your affection to be socially acceptable and good-looking. You see your lover as a friend and companion. You are very sensual, Needing someone to appreciate and almost worship you. When this cannot be achieved, you have the ability to hold out on affection until you receive this.. You are an expert at controlling your desires and doing without.
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[b]Does your name begin with: D [/b]
Once you get it into your head that you want someone, you move full Steam ahead in your suit. You do not give up your quest easily. You are nurturing and caring. If someone has a problem, this turns you on. You are highly passionate, loyal, and intense in your involvement's, sometimes possessive and jealous. You are very sharp & talented often with sense of humour. When people bother to look deep inside they cannot resist what they see. You are stimulated by the eccentric and unusual, having a free and open attitude. You get jealous of other people and lose your temper .
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[b]Does your name begin with: E[/b]
Your greatest need is to talk. If your date is not a good listener, you have trouble relating. A person must be intellectually stimulating or you are not interested sexually. You need a friend for a lover and a companion You hate disharmony and disruption, but you do enjoy a good argument once in a while-it seems to stir things up. You flirt a lot, for the challenge is more important. But once you give your heart away, you are uncompromisingly loyal. You will fall asleep with a good book. sometimes, in fact, you prefer a good book to a lover)
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[b]Does your name begin with: F[/b]
You are idealistic and romantic, putting your lover on a pedestal. You look for the very best mate you can find. You are a flirt, yet once committed, you are very loyal. You are sensuous and privately passionate. Publicly, you can be showy, extravagant, and gallant. You are a born romantic. Dramatic love scenes are a favourite fantasy past time. You can be a very generous lover.
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[b]Does your name begin with: G [/b]
You are fastidious, seeking perfection within yourself and your lover. You respond to a lover who is yourintellectual equal or superior, and one who can enhance your status. You are sensuous and know how to reach the peak of stimulation, because you work at it meticulously. You can be extremely active-never tiring out. Your duties and responsibilities take precedence over everything else. You may have difficulty getting emotionally close to people.
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[b]Does your name begin with: H[/b]
You seek a mate who can enhance your zest for life ,fun & everything You seek for. You will be very generous to your lover once you have Attained a commitment. You are very affectionate & very strong. Your gifts are actually an investment in your partner. Before the commitment, though, you tend to be very careful with your every move and equally cautious in your involvement's often as you believe that you have to look out for yourself. You are a sensual and patient lover. You will hold off till everything meets your full approval. You are a perfectionist, hard to satisfy and strong in your beliefs. Not influential, you always stand your ground. People can always count on you to stand by them in a crisis. You are a dreamer with/ a passion for life.
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[b]Does your name begin with: I [/b]
You have a great need to be loved, appreciated... even worshiped. You enjoy luxury, sensuality, and pleasures of the flesh. You like necking spend hours just touching feeling & exploring. You look for lovers who know what they are doing. You are not interested in an amateur, unless that amateur wants a tutor. You are fussy and exacting about having your desires satisfied. You are willing to experiment and try new modes of ______expression. You bore easily and thus require adventure and change. Your commitments don't last very long & you often tend to stray. Loyalty is not one of your strong points. You are more sensual than sexual, but you are sometimes downright lustful.
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[b]Does your name begin with: J [/b]
You are blessed with a great deal of physical energy. When used for a good cause there is nothing to stop you, except maybe that they aren't always used for the good. (you could dance all night.) You respond to the thrill of the chase and the challenge of the mating game.You can carry on great romances in your head. At heart you are a roamer and need to set out on your own every so often. You will carry on long- distance relationships with ease. You are idealistic and need to believe in love. You have a need to be nurtured deep within.
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[b]Does your name begin with: K [/b]
You are secretive, self-contained, and shy. You are very sexy, sensual, and passionate, but you do not let on to this. Only in intimate privacy will this part of your nature reveal itself. When it gets down to the nitty-gritty, you are an expert. You know all the little tricks of the trade, can play any role or any game, and take your love life very seriously. You don't fool around. You have the patience to wait for the right person to come along. You are very generous & giving, often selfless. You are kind-natured & sweet, which is found to be attractive by many. You are a good friend.
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[b]Does your name begin with: L [/b]
You can be very romantic, attached to the glamour of love. Having a partner is of paramount importance to you. You are free in your ______expression of love and are willing to take chances, try new sexual experiences and partners, provided it's all in good taste. Brains turn you on. You must feel that your partner is intellectually stimulating, otherwise you will find it difficult to sustain the relationship. You require loving, cuddling, wining, and dining to know that you're being appreciated. "You require loving, cuddling, wining, and dining to know that you're being appreciated ".
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[b]Does your name begin with: M[/b]
You may appear innocent, unassuming and shy; but we know that Appearances can lie. When it comes to sex, you are no novice but something of a skilled technician. You can easily go to extremes, though, running the gamut from insatiability to boredom with the whole idea of love. You can be highly critical of you mate, seeking perfection in both of you. It is not easy to find someone who can meet your standards. You have difficulty expressing emotions and drawing close to lovers. You are often selfish, thinking you are always right no matter what. You never give in. Winning is your prime desire- at any cost. You often forget friends and family and you live for the moment.
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[b]Does your name begin with: N [/b]
You are emotional and intense. When involved in a relationship, you Throw your entire being into it. Nothing stops you; there are no holds barred. You are all-consuming and crave someone who is equally passionate and intense. You believe in total freedom. You are willing to try anything and everything. Your supply of energy is inexhaustible. You want to be pampered and know how to pamper your mate. You also enjoy mothering your mate. You often have the greatest love affairs all by yourself, in your head. You are very imaginative.
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Does your name begin with: O[/b]
You are very interested in fun activities yet secretive and shy about your desires. You can re-channel much of your energy into making money and/or seeking we. You can easily have extended periods of celibacy. You are a passionate, compassionate lover, requiring the same qualities From your mate. Love is serious business; thus you demand intensity, diversity and is willing to try anything or anyone. Sometimes your passions turn to possessiveness, which must be kept in check.
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[b]Does your name begin with: P[/b]
You are very conscious of social proprieties. You wouldn't think of Doing anything that might harm your image or Reputation. Appearances count. Therefore, you require a good-looking partner. You also require an intelligent partner. Oddly enough, you may view your partner as your enemy...a good fight stimulates those vibes. You are relatively free of hang- ups.You are willing to experiment and try new ways of doing things.You are very social and sensual; you enjoy flirting and need a good deal of physical gratification.
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[b]Does your name begin with: Q[/b]
You require constant activity and stimulation. You have tremendous physical energy. It is not easy for a partner to keep up with you. You are an enthusiastic lover and tend to be attracted to people because of their ethnic groups. You need romance, hearts and flowers, and conversation to turn you on and keep you going.
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[b]Does your name begin with: R[/b]
You are a no-nonsense, action-oriented individual. You need someone who can keep pace with you and who is your intellectual equal-the smarter the better. You are turned on more quickly by a great mind than by a great body. However, physical attractiveness is not very important to you. You have to be proved to be worthy for a partner. You have a need to prove yourself the best. You want feedback on your performance. You are open, stimulating & romantic.
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[b]Does your name begin with: S [/b]
For you, it is pleasure before business. You can be romantically idealistic to a fault and is capable of much sensuality. But you never loose control of your emotions. Once you make the commitment you stick like glue. You could get jealous and possessive. You tend to be very selfish often regarding yourself as the only human being on the planet.. You like being the centre of attention. You are very caring sensitive, private & sometimes very passive. Turned on by soft lights, romantic thoughts. When it gets down to the nitty-gritty, you are an expert. You know all the little tricks of the trade, can play any role, or any game, and take your love life very seriously. You don't fool around. You have the patience to wait for the rightperson to come along. You are very generous & giving, often selfless. You are kind nature & sweet which is found to be attractive by many. You are a good friend.
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[b]Does your name begin with: T[/b]
You are very sensitive, private & sometimes very passive. You like someone who takes the lead. You get turned on by music, soft lights & romantic thoughts. You fantasize & tend to fall in & out of love soon. When in love you are romantic, idealistic, mushy & extremely. You enjoy having your senses & your feelings stimulated, titillated & teased. You are a great flirt. You can make your relationships fit your dreams, all in your own head. Once you put your mind to something you manage to stand by it and see your dreams through. You aren't very good at expressing your feelings. You like things your own way. You do not like change, you like to hold on to things. This may not always be good because if given an opportunity things may develop into great things. You work your way to the top. Attention must be given to what others say because even though you don't want to hear it their advice may turn out to save your life. !
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[b]Does your name begin with: U [/b]
You are enthusiastic & at your happiest when in love. When not in love you're in love with love and always looking for someone to adore. You see romance as challenge. You are a roamer & needs adventure, excitement freedom. You enjoy giving gifts & looking good. You are willing to put others feelings above yours.
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[b]Does your name begin with: V[/b]
You are individualistic & you need freedom, space & excitement. You wait till you know someone well before committing yourself. Knowing someone means psyching her/him out. You feel a need to get into his/her head to see what makes him tick. You are attracted to eccentric types. You believe that age is no barrier. You are good at responding to danger, fear & suspense.
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[b]Does your name begin with: W[/b]
You are very proud, determined & refuses to take no for an answer when it come to love. Your ego is at stake all the time. You are romantic, idealistic, often in love with love itself, not seeing your partner for who she or he really is. You feel deeply about love & tends to throw all of your self into a relationship. Nothing is too good for your lover. You like playing love games.
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[b]Does your name begin with: X [/b]
You need constant stimulation because you get bored quickly. You can handle more than 1 relationship at a time with ease. You can't shut off your mind. You can do 2 things at once. You are very talented.
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[b]Does your name begin with: Y [/b]
You are sensual & very independent. If you can't have it your way, you will forget the whole thing. You want to control your relationships which doesn't work out too well. You respond to physical stimulation. However if you can make money you will give up the pleasures of the flesh for the moment. You have a need to prove yourself the best. You want feedback on your performance. You are open, stimulating & romantic.
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[b]Does your name begin with: Z[/b]
You are very romantic but show feels that to love means to suffer. You wind up serving your mate & attracting people who have unusual trouble. You see yourself as a lover's saviour.
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| 12.28.03 (7:57 pm) [edit] |
I was reading my old Blog Folder and found this article that I thought I should share with everybody. This is so nice and I thought that maybe I should post here in my new blog too! Read it... and tell me what you think about it!!!
A bientot! :wink:
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[b]The one that got away [/b]
[i]Source: The Manila Times [/i]
By: [b]Mark J. Macapagal [/b]
In your life, you'll make note of a lot of people. Ones with whom you
shared something special, ones who will always mean something.
There's the one you first kissed, the one you first loved, the one
you lost your virginity to, the one you put on a pedestal, the one
you're with...and the one that got away.
Who is the one that got away? I guess it's that person with who
everything was great, everything was perfect, but the timing was just
wrong. There was no fault in the person, there was no flaw in the
chemistry, but the cards just didn't fall the right way, I suppose.
I believe in the fact that ending up with someone, finding a longtime
partner that is, does not lie merely in the other person. I can
actually argue that an equal part, or maybe even the greater part,
has to do with the matter of timing. It has to do with you being
ready to settle down and commit to someone in a way that goes beyond
the little niceties of giddy romance.
How often have you gone through it without even realizing it? When
you're not ready to commit in that mature manner, it doesn't matter
who you're with, it just doesn't work. Small problems become big;
inconsequential become dealbreakers simply because you're not ready
and it shows. It's not that you and the person you're with are no
good; it's just that it's not yet right, and little things become the
flashpoint of that fact..
Then one day you're ready. You really are. And when this happens
you'll be ready to settle down with someone. He or she may not be the
most perfect, they might not be the brightest star of romance to ever
have burned in your life, but it'll work because you're ready. It'll
work because it's the right time and you'll make it work. And it'll
make sense, it really will.
So that day comes when you're finally making sense of things, and you
find yourself to be a different person. Things are different, your
approach is different, you finally understand who you are and what
you want, and you've become ready because the time has truly arrived.
And mind you, there's no telling when this day will come. Hopefully
you're single but you could be in a long-term relationship, you could
be married with three kids, it doesn't matter. All you know is that
you've changed, and for some reason, the one that got away, is the
first person you think about.
You'll think about them because you'll wonder, "What if they were
here today?" You'll wonder, "What if we were together now, with me as
I am and not as I was?" That's what the one that got away is. The
biggest "What if?" you'll have in your life.
If you're married, you'll just have to accept the fact that the one
that got away, got away. Believe me, no matter how fairy tale you
think your marriage is, this can happen to the best of us. But
hopefully you're mature enough to realize that you're already with
the one you're with and this is just another test of your commitment,
one which will just strengthen your marriage when you get past it.
Sure, you'll think about him/her every so often, but it's alright.
It's never nice to live with a "might have been," but it happens.
Maybe the one that got away is the one who's already married. In
which case it's the same thing. You just have to accept and know that
your memories of that person will probably bring a nice little smile
to your lips in the future when you're old and gray and reminiscing.
But if neither of that is the case, then it's different. What do you
do if it's not yet too late? Simple...find him, find her. Because the
very existence of a "one that got away" means that you'll always
wonder, what if you got that one?
Ask him out to coffee, ask her out to a movie, it doesn't matter if
you've dropped in from out of nowhere. You'd be surprised, you just
might be "the one that got away" as well for the person who is
your "the one that got away."
You might drop in from out of nowhere and it won't make a difference.
If the timing is finally right, it'll all just fall into place
somehow and you know, I'm thinking, it would be a great feeling, in
the end, to be able to say to someone, "Hey you, you're the one that
almost got away."
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| 12.27.03 (1:54 am) [edit] |
found this posted by Mitzi on my Friendster Bulletin Board. It does make a lot of sense and thought I would share it with you guys... Read on... I guarantee you... it is really very nice!!! *winks*
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[b][i]The Irony Of Love [/i][/b]
[i]Isn’t it ironic how almost everyone subject
themselves to emotional anxiety and pains, in
search of the so called one true ‘LOVE’, when in
fact nobody can ever provide a single (and
universally accepted) definition of this word?...
when nobody can guarantee an end when the journey
begins?
Isn’t it ironic how one person can make you so
miserable to the extent of doubting your sense of
self-worth and feeling impotent, when there
standing behind you are countless people who
believes in you and values you so much in their
life?
Isn’t it stupid that we allow one person whom we
barely know and whom we just met, to destroy the
fruits of our past and to dictate our future by
investing all our emotions in the belief that he
can provide the happiness that we would need to
last our lifetime?
Isn’t it amazing how society makes us believe
that this one person will be enough to make us
abandon the joys from the people who really loved
us and those who molded us into the very person
that made this one person love us in the first
place?
Isn’t it unbelievable that we rely on one person
to measure our importance through the number of
phone calls, text messages, e-mails, chocolates
or flowers that we receive, when there are people
whom we call family and friends who never fail to
make us feel so important?
Doesn’t it astonish you how one failed
relationship suddenly destroys the pride,
confidence and wisdom we have carefully collected
and owned from the people and events in our
past... the foundations that made up the person
that you really were?
Isn’t it so stupid that we forget about
everything we believed in, how easily we lose our
faith in love just because of one jerk who, to
his misfortune, didn’t recognize true love when
it was in front of him?
Isn’t it amazing how we punish ourselves and how
we choose to stay in misery, when joy is just one
step ahead of us, just because of a single
mistake (of love) to which we also happen to be
the victim?
So I ask, why do we have to do this to ourselves?
When NOBODY but you knows who you really are and
how valuable you are? So please, never allow any
jerk to make you believe otherwise.
MISTAKES, never be ashamed of them for we all
commit one. Love, after all, is about acceptance.
Those who cannot accept you for who you are do
not deserve your love, simply because he is not
capable of giving you the love that you deserve. [/i]
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| 12.26.03 (6:59 am) [edit] |
ok... cuz im being bored and trying to be good... i thought maybe i should just mind my own business and stop reading other peoples emails! :P I then decided to read my own emails again and see if i should delete some which isnt that important... wasnt able to see anything which hasnt got any importance to me but instead saw something which has the most importance of all!!! NOUKIES!!! okay... my ex bf's cousin Jonathan has asked me to be in his NOUKIES team... meaning... we're trying to sell Noukies here in Australia! Reading the mail... he has been asking me to do some research works about the market... Statistics! Basically we need to do market research! Oh... for the love of money... it is so bloody expensive!!! Still though.... I was able to manage to bribe my sister (who is on her school holidays) to go search on the net! VOILA! it was finished in 5 days! Now... we just need to start some more research about the product in our order for us to start the business by March... damn... buying time... its just like hunting season for rabbits! Thats whats gonna keep me busy tonite... no more stalking other people.... HAHAHAHA!!! oh... i miss talking to Frank... miss his kisses and hearing his laughter.... I cant wait to tell him about it!!!
[i]***Work Mode-ON...??? [/i]
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| 12.26.03 (6:42 am) [edit] |
awww... this is sooooo [b][u]BAD[/u][/b]!!!! I got back my BAD HABIT of checking my ex bf's email addie. I was bored y'know... got nuthin to do! Then so i thought well maybe... it wouldnt hurt... hehehe!!! Oh well... i dunno!!! Its bad!!! Like really bad!!! LOL!!! okay... well maybe if he didnt give me his password I wouldnt gotten tempted to read his emails... right?! I know... I know that deep inside him... he really wanted me to read his emails!!! Ive been good before though.... for 5 mos!!! I didnt open his email!!! Oh gosh.... Francesco!!! Pls come back before I get oh so freakin bored that I might do somethin oh so freakin nasty!!! *ie; change his password so he cant access his email addie!!!* mean!!! :twisted: hahahaha!!! I know its not funny.... but mi bello... pls come back home soon... although i know we've been going through some tough times lately... you know how much i miss you.... *pouts* pls come back my bambino.... before i do something really nasty!!! hehehehe.....
*** another Bored moment..... 1:38am
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| 12.26.03 (5:49 am) [edit] |
How was my Christmas...??? Twas alright... lotsa eating and heaps more eating afterwards! We opened our pressies around 10:30pm before Christmas as we got bored after eating dinner and we were just sitting right in-front of the christmas tree staring at our pressies! hehehe....
Who greeted me...??? Well... i dunno if Frank was counted as the first one... He messaged during the 24th... at 8:45 am. I was at the real estate agent signing up the lease when I've decided to ring Lacey to tell her that i'll be a couple more minutes late. But instead was surprised to see that I got a message from him... see the thing is... I messaged him the nite before saying that I dunno if he recieves any of my messages or if he reads any of them. but anyway i miss him a lot and hope he'll have a happy xmas. Thats the reason why he messaged me back. He said... reception is really bad in Italy. have a merry xmas and a happy new year. see you soon! Big kiss. Was that special or not?!!? Really... sometimes i just couldnt care less anymore! I dont wanna upset myself about something or someone that isnt mine or has got no relations with me! Hmmmm.... hehehe!!! I am STRONG!!! hahahaha!!!!
Anyway, my friends back in the Phils messaged me the next day... like Christmas day! I miss them... all of them... but well... as Ive told Ritche... its not my fault that i was able to find a really good job that I can just throw away!!!
[b] People from around the world.... May you all have a very GOOD 2004!!![/b]
[i]***Greetings from Noosa... Happy Holidays!!![/i] :D
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| 12.23.03 (6:29 am) [edit] |
i'm going to Europe in the yr 2005 but im starting to learn how to speak basic French and Spanish... I havent got much problem with Spanish because I do know some of the basic words so i reckon i'll be fine. Anyway as I was surfing the net for some French words... I found this site that has been very helpful. Thought I'd share with you guys.
[b]***FRENCH TRANSLATION***[/b]
Zero - Zero
[b]One [/b]- Un
[b]Two [/b]- Deux
[b]Three [/b]- Trois
[b]Four [/b]- Quatre
[b]Five [/b]- Cinq
[b]Six [/b]- Six
[b]Seven [/b]- Sept
[b]Eight [/b]- Huit
[b]Nine [/b]- Neuf
[b]Ten [/b]- Dix
[b]Eleven [/b]- Onze
[b]Twelve [/b]- Douze
[b]Thirteen [/b]- Treize
[b]Fourteen [/b]- Quatorze
[b]Fifteen [/b]- Quinze
[b]Sixteen [/b]- Seize
[b]Seventeen [/b]- Dix-Sept
[b]Eighteen [/b]- Dix-Huit
[b]Nineteen [/b]- Dix-Neuf
[b]Twenty [/b]- Vingt
[b]Hello [/b]- Bonjour
[b]Hi [/b]- Salut
[b]Goodbye [/b]- Au revoir
[b]See you later [/b]- A tout a l'heure
[b]See you soon [/b]- A bientot
[b]See you tomorrow [/b]- A demain
[b]Bye [/b]- Tchao
[b]Madame (Mme) [/b]- Ma'am, Mrs.
[b]Madamoiselle (Mlle) [/b]- Miss
[b]Monsieur (M.) [/b]- Sir, Mr.
[b]Comment ca va [/b]- How are you
[b]Ca va [/b]- Fine
[b]Super [/b]- great
[b]Tres bien [/b]- very well
[b]Comme ci, comme ca [/b]- So-so
[b]Bof! [/b]- (expression of indifference)
[b]Pas mal [/b]- Not bad
[b]Pas terrible [/b]- Not so great
[b]Et toi? [/b]- And you?
[b]Tu t'appelles comment? [/b]- What's your name?
[b]Je m'appelle [/b]- My name is...
[b]Il/Elle s'appelle comment? [/b]- What's his/her name?
[b]Il/Elle s'appelle... [/b]- His/her name is...
[b]Tu as quel age? [/b]- How old are you?
[b]J'ai...ans [/b]- I am ... years old
[b]Oui [/b]- yes
[b]Non [/b]- no
[b]Et [/b]- and
[b]Mais [/b]- but
[b]Ou [/b]- or
[b]Aussi [/b]- also
[b]Surtout [/b]- especially
[b]Comment tu trouves ca? [/b]- What do you think of this?
[b]Ca va [/b]- it's OK
[b]C'est... [/b]- It's...
[b]Cool [/b]- cool
[b]Facile [/b]- easy
[b]Difficile [/b]- difficult
[b]Genial [/b]- great
[b]Interessant [/b]- interesting
[b]Passionant [/b]- fascinating
[b]Pas mal [/b]- not bad
[b]Barbant [/b]- boring
[b]Nul [/b]- Useless
[b]Pas super [/b]- not so hot
[b]Pas terrible [/b]- not so great
[b]Zero [/b]- A waste of time
[b]Firm a la bouche![/b] - Shut up
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| 12.23.03 (5:34 am) [edit] |
its 2 days before Christmas... and im gettin the blues! i get the blues every year... like a couple of days before christmas... tonite before i go to bed i know that i'll be crying myself to sleep. i know that i'll be contemplatring about the message that i sent Frank this evening. i only wanted to be honest about how i feel towards him... i miss him.. really! this time im saying this and i know that its not because that im hungry! :wink: seriously... i miss Frank. I know that when he said au revoir he meant that goodbye... like full stop.... im not gonna see you anymore. the last message he sent me... the one that he sent when he was in Paris... i dunno... I'm not sure why he actually sent me that message... compensation perhaps? Awww.... there, its starting... I can feel the tears about to fall. I told my mum last week, i've never had a happy birthday... forgot to tell her... i've never had a happy Christmas.... well, aside from the ones that I had when I was a kid... when i get really happy opening pressies from my parents and from my family. when i get excited about lil things... like big walking and talking dolls, Barbie dolls, Cabbage Patch kids, and those kitchen toy sets. I wish i was young again. I wish i can still enjoy Christmas like a young kid again. I wish i'd be able to appreciate Christmas the way i used to when i was a lil girl. Believing that all those pressies came from Santa because I've been good... its a shame that its only the kids who actually enjoy Christmas. actually... i reckon Christmas is for kids and families... i do have a family... but its different now. There arent any kids in my family anymore... except my nieces... but they're both overseas.... I dunno... I just dont get excited about Christmas anymore. Its weird... I was still happy a couple days ago... but now I can feel that I'm alone... whats the point of celebrating Christmas? well... I know its Jesus' birthday... Not that im not celebrating it... I'm actually going to church... say my prayers and thank him for His blessings... Guess thats what Christmas is all about... oh well... Christmas maybe isnt just my thing... or maybe I'm just getting too emotional. I just miss Frank... sorry that he's not here... that he wont be with me anymore....
[i]***Senti mode on :cry: [/i]
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| ...-=GEMINI=-... |
| 12.23.03 (5:17 am) [edit] |
I am a Gemini.
(Also known as "Twins")
My Horroscope starts like this:
" Eternally childish - both intellectually and emotionally, a Gemini simply refuses to grow up, and will often mooch of off someone until old age. " (Read more | Find yours)
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| 12.22.03 (6:47 am) [edit] |
LAYER 0NE:
[b]Name[/b]: ANNA
[b]Birth date[/b]: 1977
[b]Birthplace[/b]: PHILS
[b]Current Location: [/b]SYDNEY
[b]Eye Color: [/b]DARK BROWN
[b]Hair Color[/b]: DARK BROWN
[b]Height: [/b]5'3"
[b]Righty or Lefty[/b]: RIGHTY
[b]Zodiac Sign[/b]: GEMINI
[b][u]LAYER TWO:[/u][/b]
[b]The shoes you wore today[/b]: MY BLACK 3INCH STILLETOS
[b]Your weakness: [/b]WHEN IM HUNGRY
[b]Your fears[/b]: LOSING MYSELF TO SOMEONE
[b]Your perfect pizza[/b]: CHICKEN BBQ SAUCE
[b]Goal you'd like to achieve: [/b]TO BE A LESSS THAN COMPLIACTED WOMAN!
[b][u]LAYER THREE:[/u][/b][b]Your most overused phrase(s) on YM/ICQ[/b]: LOLZ
[b]Your thoughts first waking up[/b]: TIME TO WORK... WONDER WHERE FRANK IS... ITALY?
[b]Your best physical feature[/b]: SMILE?
[b]Your bedtime: [/b]BETWEEN 12AM-3AM
[b]Your most missed memory: [/b]CANT BE BOTHERED
[b][u]LAYER FOUR:[/u][/b]
[b]In love? [/b]I WISH!!!
[b][u]LAYER FIVE:[/u][/b]
[b]Smoke: [/b]NO
[b]Cuss: [/b]SOMETIMES
[b]Sing: [/b]MOST OF THE TIME
[b]Take a shower[/b]: TWICE A DAY
[b]Have a crush: [/b]NAH... JUST LIKE HIM...
[b]Do you think you've been in love[/b]: TWICE!
[b]Want to go to college[/b]: COLLEGE IS HEAPS FUN!!!
[b]Like(d) high school[/b]: lOVED HIGH SCHOOL!!!
[b]Want to get married[/b]: YES... ONE DAY.
[b]Believe in yourself:[/b] ALWAYS
[b]Get motion sickness:[/b]SOMETIMES
[b]Think you're attractive[/b]: I GET MY MOMENTS
[b]Think youre a health freak?: [/b]SOMETIMES...
[b]Get along with your parent(s): [/b]YES... NO MORE ISSSUES (CROSS FINGERS)
[b]Like thunderstorms[/b]: NO!!!
[b]Play an instrument: [/b]NO... LETS JUST SING!!!
[u][b]LAYER SIX:[/b][/u]
In the past month...
[b]drank alcohol[/b]: YES
[b]Smoked[/b]: NO
[b]Done a drug[/b]: NO
[b]Had Sex[/b]: ONLY WITH MYSELF!! wooohoooo
[b]Made Out: [/b]YES
[b]Gone on a date[/b]: YES
[b]Gone to the mall?: [/b]EVERYDAY
[b]Eaten an entire box of Oreos[/b]: NO... DONT LIKE EM
[b]Eaten sushi[/b]: SUNDAY AFTERNOON
[b]Been on stage[/b]: YES... LAST OCTOBER
[b]Been dumped: [/b]YES... LAST YR AROUND THIS MONTH!
[b]Gone skating[/b]: NO
[b][u]LAYER SEVEN:[/u][/b]
[b]Ever...
Played a game that required removal of
clothing[/b]: NO... NEED FOR ME TO BE REALLY HAMMERED
[b]Been trashed or extremely intoxicated[/b]: YES... HEAPS OF TIMES!
[b]been caught "doing something[/b]": YES... BY ENA ALWAYS!!!
[b]Been called a tease: [/b]YES....
[b]Got beaten up[/b]: NO... HAS BEATEN UP SOMEONE
[b]Shoplifted: [/b]YES... I WAS IN YR 4 AND IVY THIS GIRL WAS TELLING ME TO DO IT CUZ ITS COOL DAW!
[b]Changed who you were to fit in:[/b]
MAYBE BE LIKE GWYNETH PALTROW
[u][b]LAYER EIGHT:[/b][/u]
[b]Age you hope to be married[/b]: EARLY 30'S
[b]Numbers and Names of Children[/b]: 1 BOY OR 1 GIRL
[b]Describe your Dream Wedding[/b]:I JUST WANT IT TO BE SIMPLE WITH OUR CLOSE FRIENDS AND FAMILIES...
[b]How do you want to die: [/b]PEACFULLY IN MY BED
[b]Where do you want to go to college[/b]: HARVARD
[b]What do you want to be when you grow up[/b]: A WRITER
[u][b]LAYER NINE:[/b][/u]
[b]In A Girl/guy[/b]
[b]Best eye color[/b]? DARK BROWN
[b]Best hair color[/b]? DARK BROWN OR BLACK
[b]Short or long hair[/b]: CLAEN CUT
[b]Height[/b]: TALLER THAN ME!!!
[b]Best weight[/b]: HAS TO BE A BIT FIT IF NOT FIT
[b]Best articles of clothing[/b]: SMART CASUAL
[b]Best first date location[/b]: NEAR THE OPERA HOUSE
[b]Best first kiss location[/b]: INFRONT OF THE HARBOUR BRIDGE SITTING RIGHT BESIDE THE OPERA HOUSE...
[u][b]LAYER TEN:[/b][/u]
[b]# of illegal drugs taken[/b]: 0
[b]# of people I could trust with my life[/b]: 3
[b]# of CDs that I own[/b]: LOST COUNT... GOT THE CD ELEFUNK!
[b]# of tattoos[/b]: NONE
[b]# of scars on my body[/b]: AROUND 4-5... TOO TINY, CANT SEE IT!
[b]# of birthmarks[/b]: NONE...
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| ...-=BURP ON ME!!!=-... |
| 12.22.03 (5:59 am) [edit] |
lets see how many people can burp with different styles.... post it mate... post it!!!
"GHURRRRHHHP" *eherm*eherm*sniffs* after... hehehehe
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| 12.22.03 (5:56 am) [edit] |
i finished so many things at work... while i was at the midddle of another client's paper, i saw Janie's email about the outreach. saying thanks for the donation that i gave them. thats cool... i really honestly felt good afterwards! then after wards.... i needed to get the Nokia N-Gage Fone at Blacktown for someone... ehem! Its a bloody Christmas pressie and so i had to go there! then on my way home... at the train, i started feeling funny. you know how you get that funny feeling sometimes... you ache for someone, you feel as if you want that person right next to you.. you want to be that person's other half.. you want to call that other person yours and you start day dreaming about what you's can do together... and have just heaps so much fun together! yeah... thats how i was feeling....
by the time i got home... i just sat at the couch still thinking about my thoughts then i started to eat dinner as i havent had lunch yet... then afterwards i realized... hmmmmm..........
[i][b]Taena... GUTOM LANG PALA YUN!!![/b][/i]
***[i]hehehehehehehehe.... mahirap talaga gutumin si kulasa!!![/i]
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| ...-=I'VE BEEN THINKING...=-... |
| 12.20.03 (1:08 am) [edit] |
ive been thinking... "I am so over Philip!!!" I dont know how but its just strange or say weird that before i was telling myself that my love for him will never fade. but now... I cant even see myself being with him anymore although i still see him as a very cool person... he's still HOT AS! LOLZ!!! seriously speaking... he's a nice person... although he's got his flaws... but who doesnt! I'm just happy for having him in my life even for a short while... it wasnt all good... but at the same time it wasnt that bad too. Heaps of dramas... but it was all worth it! ive learnt so much from him... from the relationship... im glad that he has made me laugh... smile and even cry. its just weird that now the feeling is gone. im just not so used to it. i used to look at his foto before i go to bed. think about him before i do something. or sometimes even daydream that maybe one day we would be back together.... but not recently! recently ive just been thinking about work, moving out and Frank coming back from Europe. I was even surprised that Mama asked about Frank this morning... like when he will be coming back! I dont know... I dont know what to expect with Frank... actually im not expecting anything anymore. If he calls once he comes back then its good... if he doesnt it doesnt matter. But really now... now that Philip is really out of my mind or my heart... why cant i fall in love? isnt it time? hmmm.... or maybe i still havent found the right person yet.... should i wait... or should i look for one? i dunno... i just thought that the first time i kissed Frank it felt different... it felt wonderful... i thought he was the one.... or was he?!!
[i]***JUST THINKING... wondering.... hoping....[/i]
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Papa told me this afternoon that he's already put my money into my bank account... therefore... no more money arguements between father-daughter! he then asked me if he can borrow money from me but then i told him that i cant cuz i'll be paying the bond for my flat. then he goes: [b][i]"what flat?" [/i][/b] so.... he doenst know! mama hasnt told him about my moving out! anyways... so i told him. Im moving to burwood with Ryan and Brian. And then he said: [b][i]"BOYS??? YOU'RE MOVING IN WITH BOYS???"[/i][/b] then i said yes... they're my friends and i work with them so it shouldnt be a problem. then he said... "[b][i]NO! NO YOU CANT![/i][/b]" i didnt say anything afterwards... besides what else can he do??? if he'll say im gonna kick you out... no point... im like kicking myself out anyway! hmmmm..... me bad! but really... i felt like telling him a while ago... [i]"Papa.... just go watch 2 Guys & a Girl!" [/i] My parents still arent used to my being independent. well i'm not yet independent but im getting to it. im gonna bring my mum to burwood tomorrow so we can go see the place together then afterwards maybe we can go bed shopping! im going to introduce Ryan and Brian to my parents too so that they'll get comfy with the situation. I dunno.... it shouldnt be complicated. only if Papa wasnt old fashioned... it shouldnt be a trouble! *sigh* if only things were that easy....
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| 12.19.03 (7:55 am) [edit] |
i got home from work around 7:30pm and recieved the news from Ryan that we got the flat at Burwood! Heard my bedroom was really mad!!! So we just have to pay the bond and the 2 weeks advance rent then we can move in anytime we want to! BIG CHANGE!!! Ive decided and told Ryan that I'll be moving in after New Year... start anew... hmmmm....
By the time I finished eating dinner (Hungry Jacks double whooper) i was lay down on the couch and didnt know that i fell asleep. Papa started telling us to clean the house and for me to wrap the pressie that he was gonna give to his friends son who's turning 7 tomorrow. I got cranky cuz i was really tired and decided to go up to my bedroom though twas really hot and was so hard to sleep. I opened my balcony door and put the fan on number 3 and just jumped on my bed and just went to sleep straight away... waking up around 2:10 am cuz twas sooooo hot!!! and here i am blogging... although still feeling buggered and a bit sleepy but cant go back to sleep cuz believe me... its really hot here in sydney right now!!! thank god its a weekend tomorrow... i can try to relax and just bludge tomorrow ...if Papa wont nag us to clean our rooms and the house!
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anyway, this afternoon at work during my lunch break, i saw this guy who looks a bit like Frank. he was staring at me while he was holding his girlfriend's hands. at first i was thinking maybe it was him but then i looked at the guy again and no it wasnt him... the guy was a bit skinny and frank isnt skinny! besides, what the hell would he be doing at Parramatta???? Frank would never go to Parramatta! Well i dunno.... if it was him or not... I really dont give a shit anymore! Ive decided... I cant waste my time with guys who doesnt know what the fuck they want in their lives!!! Frank is nice... but if he cant decide and if he cant speak whats on his mind... then stuff it! I cant wait forever....
[i]***Buggered and feeling lonely... :cry: [/i]
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| 12.18.03 (3:40 am) [edit] |
dont know what's causing me to have sleepless nites again... maybe its work or some issues here at work... or maybe its just Frank... i miss him so bloody much!!! like totally full on!!! hehehehe.... really... i miss him though!!! miss his smile, his laugh and the way he crinkle his forehead whenever he thinks about what to say... i miss him holding my hands and kissing me gently. I miss Frank so much... Mi manchi bello... mi manchi mucho!!!
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[b]TATTOOED ON MY MIND[/b]
[i]Baby you'll soon forget about all,
or maybe you'll miss it like I do.
One thing’s for sure I’m on a doubt, spend too much time thinkin’ of you
chorus
And I can't get you out of my dreams
Now I know that you're the dangerous kind
And your smile is tattooed on my mind
And I can't get you out of my dreams
Don't wanna write,
I don't wanna call,
I would not know what to say
It should be you
That’s how I want it to be
Tell me you feel the same way
chorus
And I can't get you out of my dreams
Now know that you're a danger first kind
And your smile is tattooed on my mind
And I can't get you out of my dreams...oh!
Oh, Yesterday, I was feelin' safe, oh
All I do today is tryin’ to be great
and no melody can seem to suit my mind...
and now I curse you for being so sweet and so kind
chorus
And I can't get you out of my dreams
Now I know that you're a dangerous kind
And your face is tattooed on my mind
And I can't get you out of my dreams..
Yes I know you're tattooed
On my mind you're tattooed[/i]
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| 12.17.03 (6:02 am) [edit] |
i got home around 9:20 pm after spending almost my whole day looking for a flat with Ryan and Brian. Afterwards, i went at DJ's to visit some of friends there. Around 7pm... after trying to talk to Annita about her issues (to no avail..), decided to meet up with Jonathan to talk about our business. i have this big fat headache which was not helping me concentrate on what Jonathan was telling me and trying not to look uncomfortable about Jonathan trying not to look at my breast (i shouldve worn my white shirt and not the blue cross-over top if it wasnt so freakin hot!!!) while talking to me! We talked for like about an hour, re-assessing about what we've accomplished and what more we need to know and do. He showed me the product that we were gonna distribute and they're so cute!!! I've told him about sponsoring one of the charities so maybe we can publicize the product more. He thought it was a briliant idea....
Anyway.. im now dazed and confused about moving out. I hate it when my parents thinks that im selfish and that i only think about myself cuz im moving out. see the thing is... i doing this cuz this way i know that papa will be able to see things clearly! as long as were here he would think that everything is ok... he wouldnt bother to help! im also doing this cuz i feel that its right... i feel as if im gonna regret it if i wont follow my instinct right now. I dunno.... am I doing the right thing or not?! Pls God... give me a sign.... :roll:
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| 12.16.03 (5:47 am) [edit] |
im watching Red Hot Chilli Pepper's live concert at Slane Castle while typing this post. And I was looking at the vocalist [u]Anthony Kiedis [/u]and sorta noticed that he looked a bit like my ex-baby-ex-fiance [i]Philip Cruz[/i]. He looks HOT... i mean Anthony... i kinda missed having those bad boys in my life somehow! hehehe... Bad and Wild!!! LOLZ!!! im not really a fan of Red Hot Chilli Peppers but i kinda like some of their songs like [u]Under The Bridge, Scar Tissue, Other Side, By The Way [/u]and [u]Fortune Faded[/u]. I was meant to watch their concert here in Sydney last year but my dear brother dogged me!!! In a way it was alright cuz i heard it was a mad nite! There was a couple of people who got hurt cuz the crowd became really wild! Twas okay... ive got the DVD anyway! 8)
Anyway... 'nuff with the [b]RHCP[/b] thingie.... gotta other things to post here... actually, i have to change some stuff here so better do it now otherwise it'll be too late again.
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[b]UNDER THE BRIDGE[/b]
[i]Sometimes I feel
Like I don't have a partner
Sometimes I feel
Like my only friend
Is the city I live in
The city of angels
Lonely as I am
Together we cry
I drive on her streets
'Cause she's my companion
I walk through her hills
'Cause she knows who I am
She sees my good deeds
And she kisses me windy
I never worry
Now that is a lie
I don't ever want to feel
Like I did that day
Take me to the place I love
Take me all the way
It's hard to believe
That there's nobody out there
It's hard to believe
That I'm all alone
At least I have her love
The city she loves me
Lonely as I am
Together we cry
I don't ever want to feel
Like I did that day
Take me to the place I love
Take me all that way
Under the bridge downtown
Is where I drew some blood
Under the bridge downtown
I could not get enough
Under the bridge downtown
Forgot about my love
Under the bridge downtown
I gave my life away[/i]
[i]***Anthony Kiedis ROCKS!!!![/i]
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| 12.15.03 (4:01 am) [edit] |
have you ever gotten the feeling of being so sick, that you feel so low and so unloved?! i was feeling like that this morning. i went to work contemplating about so many stuff about work and suddenly i just felt sick. my back was sore, i had this big fat headache and my limbs and joints were all sore! i didnt feel like going to work anymore and i suddenly felt like being so alone. i suddenly felt like having someone by my side, someone to take care of me. i wasnt feeling like the "[u]superwoman[/u]"my friends were calling me-single and independent! this morning i was feeling so insecure and so vulnerable! i felt like getting off the train and just go back home instead... come to think of it, my mum and my sister's back and home and they were going to go shopping during the afternoon... that would be a good therapy! still i thought... no! too much sickies anymore! about time that that i go to work... do my best and concentrate! when i got to work, anthony was there. i asked him what he was doing there and he asked me back saying "[i]you dont look okay... whats wrong honey?"[/i] i just said that i was feeling sick but i was getting teary-eyed as well! so he told me he knows what can fix that.... he was gone for 15 min and when he got back he's got this [b]BIG MACCA'S BAG[/b] and i started smiling!!! he bought me hotcakes from mcdonalds!!! oh.... those hotcakes!!! they always bring a smile to my face!!! after eating hotcakes... i was feeling better! i started annoying Joe by covering his monitor screen with a contract while he was making a new contract! i scribbled on his draft when he was reviewing it! and i pulled off his computer from the socket while he was reading the news online!!! i started becoming a menace!!! :twisted: Joe , being so ever patient just started scribbling on my arms with texta (permanent markers!) and high-lighters.. you know those bright-flourescent ones!!! and i started screaming at him and started chasing him cuz i was going to see a client in an hour! :lol: it was all good fun! even our manager was mocking around with us! after eating a kebbab full of garlic sauce... he started burping and blowing it on our faces!!! i ended up buying her a pack of mints!!!! :lol:
work was fun afterwards... i reckon the hotcakes made me well!!! :wink:
[i]***Love Macca's Hotcakes!!![/i]
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| 12.14.03 (12:45 am) [edit] |
I was looking at my new blog (this one) and was thinking, what else can i do with it?! well... like before with my old ix blog... i still dont know how to use html...yada-yada-yada! jah has tried to help me (a lot!) showing me links to help me with customizing my blog but i guess im hopeless at it! maybe i should just stick to posting my entries... but it'll look so plain!!! aaaarrrrggghhhh!!!! :x :cry: oh well... i guess i'll just have to stick to what i can do for now... (i bought this script for my left hand-side corner but didnt know what to do with it! *dumb*) post entries when im not busy, whinge and rant about work or my pathetic (non-existent) love-life! or maybe just share some fun times with my family or friends!
[i]***FRUSTRATED [/i]:?
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[i] "I dont want to get into something and feel rejected. I dont want to feel I gave myself to someone in every way and then found myself all alone."[/i]
-[b]Mariah Carey[/b]
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I was reading the Sunday magazine (Sunday Telegraph) and was happy to read Mariah Carey's interview. I admire her as a singer and after reading her interview, I admired her more as a person! Like everybody, she's got her up's and down's. But what I really liked about her was the fact that she admits that she has stuffed up sometimes and wasnt scared to admit it. She didnt blame anybody for her wrong decisions and has grown as a stronger person. I've always liked Mariah, since I was 17. I love her albums specially her song with BoyzIIMen, One Sweet Day. I like the fact that she admits that she has been insecure of herself before and is now starting to appreciate herself more. She has been through so much and I'm happy that now she's learning to be more stronger. Only wish is that... she'll make another good album (glad she left Virgin Records!) and not think about doing another movie again. I love her songs... and listening to her songs still sometimes makes me teary-eyed. She has touched me with her songs before... and now she has stouched me more by opening up and letting eveyrbody know that like ordinary people... she once wished and prayed for something so big... and you can achieve it. But sometimes that 'something' can be so big... even bigger than life that you get lost in it... I'm so glad now she has found herself again.... I'll always be her fan... no matter what!
[i][b]MARIAH....YOU GO GIRL!!!![/b][/i] :)
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| 12.12.03 (5:59 pm) [edit] |
Im suffering from a very bad hang-over from my friends Christmas party last night but still im looking forward for this party tonight!!! its going to be a cruise and its going to be a mad one!!! I'm going to be my brother's partner as Pam's not here yet... so im thinking of how to get rid of this hang-over!!! maybe a visit toJurlique
[i]***BORED!!!![/i] :roll:
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| 12.12.03 (5:37 pm) [edit] |
its going to be [b]Christmas[/b] in 2 weeks time... and im kinda dreading it! I dont feel homesick really, I actually dont miss my friends back in the Phils that much anymore... it's just that now that I thought I've got someone... he's no where to be found. he's not here in Sydney right now but he'll be back soon... in like 3 weeks time... but I'm really kinda nervous about that too! That's going to be our [u]make or break[/u] time. I miss him sooooo much though... I've never had a happy Christmas... i've got my family true... but it's just different when you've got your special someone with you as well....
[i]Ti penso sempre Francesco... Mi manchi....[/i]
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i opened the link to my tblog and was surprised to see that it hsa changed :shock: !!! then i started thinking... who the hell is [i]frankie[/i]?!!? then i started reading frankie's blog... realizing that it was my sister's blog!!! so now she's blogging too!!! almost copying my blog title!!! only hers has got the [i]"bright"[/i] word hmmm.... guess i can be more creative than that! hehehe....
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| 12.09.03 (4:29 am) [edit] |
i bought the sunday paper last sunday but wasnt able to go through it not until 4pm cuz i went to do my christmas shopping first! as i got home, i flicked through the Body&Soul section first and saw this article about relationships... I was able to kinda relate... then i started adding up my compatibilty with Frank... guess what... i dont know him that well yet, i cant really add up anything!!! :lol:
anyway... thought i'll post the article here and maybe it'll help some of you guys out there....
[i]***this is the start of my good blogging days!!![/i]:wink:
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[b]PASSION PLAY[/b]
[i]Bronwen Gora [/i]
Striking out in the dating game? Relationships guru and author [i]Tracey Cox [/i]has some sure-fire ways to attract the opposite sex.
For some people finding a partner is easy. They leave a party with half a dozen numbers, enjoy just as many dates and suddenly are on the arm of a new girlfriend or boyfriend. Others constantly walk away from the dating game empty-handed. And worse, they don't understand why.
The trouble is, you've got to know what you're after - and in specific detail. Sex and relationships expert Tracey Cox believes we need to search for the right person with the precision of a heat-seeking missile.
"If you really want to arm yourself for the best possible relationship you need a wish list," says Cox. "Ask yourself what am I looking for? When you're single you need certain things to ensure that the next relationship you have is a good one. Can you cope with a smoker? Do you want a social person? An academic person? You need to be really armed with what you want."
And if you aren't? "It's like when you go out shopping and you don't know what you want, so you come back with something horrific, or something that doesn't go with what's in the rest of your wardrobe," she adds.
love, come quickly
Cox knows what she's talking about.
A former women's magazine editor, she is the author of the books Supersex, Hot Sex and Hot Relationships. Her new book Superflirt focuses on body language. Cox has also hosted several relationship-based television shows in Britain and is currently filming a series in the US. (As for her own lovelife, Cox, 41, is single and dating a DJ she met on a photographic shoot. "He's very young," she confides.) Cox warns though to keep your wish list realistic. "You're not allowed to ask for anything you can't provide yourself.'' (And for all the gold diggers out there that includes financial wishes as well, says Cox.) Don't write someone off immediately either, and don't think you that you know exactly what your perfect partner looks like.
"Often the person who's right for us isn't in the packaging we expect," says Cox. "That's why some of the best relationships of all come through the Internet or friends because they're based on what really matters in the end. All the friendship qualities are really essential.
"I don't mind the Internet. I know people lie and you can't trust their pictures, but when it works, it works very well. This is because you're not connecting on looks or physical chemistry, but the chemistry in words. Even if when they see each other for real and they think `I don't think so' they're likely to hang around for a few hours and give it a chance."
So how do you know someone's the right person in whom to invest your precious time? Here are Cox's top five crucial relationship components. The greater the number of matches, the better relationship you will have.
[b][u]1 compatibility[/u][/b]: Cox says background factors such as education and upbringing really do matter. If the sex is great yet you disagree on everything from movies you want to see to the best way to bring up children it's not looking good. "Opposites attract for sex, but they don't generally work long term."
[b][u]2 common goals[/u][/b]: "If you're working towards the same goal chances are you'll stay together," says Cox. "People get married because of projects to work on together." Planning things together keeps the fun factor up - so once you've planned one event, get motivated and start working towards another. The common goals rule applies to your love life too. "Not everybody wants a really passionate relationship because it's hard work," Cox says.
[b][u]3 timing[/u][/b]: If one of you is shopping for houses and the other for travel backpacks, this probably isn't the right time for you both to get together. Cox believes crucially busy times in your career can play havoc with a new romance as can memories of your ex. "You might meet your perfect partner but that's no good if they don't want to settle down," she says.
[b][u]4 speed[/u][/b]: How fast do you live life? "Speed is really important," says Cox. "There are people who run through life and people who amble through life - those who balance 20 things at once and run companies by the time they're 25-years-old, and others who amble through their careers and let life happen to them. These two types of people don't work together." Sometimes, though, one will calm down the other. "If he's on the high end of slow and she's on the low end of fast (or vice versa) it might work."
[b][u]5 chemistry[/u][/b]: Whether you call it passion, the X factor, or "that certain something" - it's all the same. Chemistry is triggered by our sexual blueprints, says Cox. "We meet somebody and our brain says `This is what I do and don't like about people' and it ticks things off," she explains. "The more matches, the more likely you are to go `Bingo, we have chemistry'." It's all the little things, too, that create chemistry. "You might have been a little boy at school and had a crush on a third year teacher who wore stockings all the time and therefore stockings do it for you when you grow up."
But watch out - sometimes the natural chemical cocktail is stronger than you think. "Chemistry's what makes you want to kiss your husband's brother," Cox says. "It's illogical and it's dangerous. Chemistry doesn't care whether the person that you're fancying belongs to someone else. Chemistry and passion have no morals."
Now you've gone through the checklist and looked at your relationship, work out how many points you connect on. The more the better. Cox says:
[i]2 "It's probably not going to last."
3 "Average."
4 "You're doing very well."
5 "Excellent."[/i]
If you only match on one area, well... "If there's only one factor you match up on, it will be chemistry," says Cox.
"But on it's own it just means that you're going to spend the next six months in bed together. Chemistry alone won't guarantee you a great realtionship."
[b]all a flutter[/b]
A lot of flirting techniques work, but fluttering-of-the-eyelids is one of the best. "The more we fancy someone the more we blink," says Cox. "You can trick someone into fancying you by blinking a lot. When you fall in love or are attracted to somebody your pupils dilate. Then we blink faster as all the blood rushes through our body faster.'' A case of the fidgets can also mean someone likes you. "When we're interested in someone our skin is more sensitive to touch and we indulge in auto erotic touching,'' Cox explains. "If someone likes you they'll start smoking and eating more or touching their mouths because it feels good. You can make somebody fall in love with you to a point by increasing these actions." And don't worry about your chat up lines because body language is more important. "When we meet somebody 58 per cent of our impression is body language, 38 per cent is tone, speed and inflection of their voice and 4 per cent is what they're saying," says Cox. "If your shoulders droop and you look down and slouch you're going to repel people. If you sit up straight, lean forward and add in a smile and a touch most people will like you. That's all you need to do."
[i]Superflirt by Tracey Cox is published by DK, $29.95.[/i]
[b]the numbers game[/b]
The more strikes you make, the more you're likely you are to hit the jackpot. "People have this weird idea that they'll meet their partner on a Friday or Saturday night in a bar but one per cent of people meet this way," says Cox. "People meet mostly through their friends or at places like the bus stop or local shops." Simply put, it's a numbers game: the more people you talk to the more likely you'll meet someone. "Force yourself into going out with as many people as possible and think outside the square."
[i]The Sunday Telegraph
December 7, 2003[/i]
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| 12.09.03 (4:14 am) [edit] |
i havent been blogging here long but i am enjoying it soooooo much!!! :D I love the emoticons and how you can personalise your web-blog too!!! tblog is the most user-friendly blogspace that ive had so far!
guess i'll be blogging more often now!!! :P
[i]***weird how the emoticon with the rolling eyes kinda look like frank! hehehehe.... miss that jerk!!![/i] :wink:
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| 12.09.03 (3:35 am) [edit] |
this is one way of starting anew. I left ix.1space.com cuz for some reason i cant access my [u]OWN BLOG[/u]!!!! :shock: anyway... thought i'll try tblog cuz well, it kinda look cool.
will i still write about Francesco in my new blog? i dunno... :roll: i kinda promised myself that i wont be thinking and writing about him so well maybe i wont... i'll try anyway.
Ive been trying to look for a flat around the city and damn... its getting quite difficult as im starting to get really fussy about the place that im gonna move in! well, for once i have to be really about where im gonna move cuz well i will be staying there for quite a while i guess.
so... this is it i guess... my first entry!!! hope this one will last.....
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